Recently some of you have asked me how I met my Goddess as well as if we would consider inviting some of you to join us in our femdom lifestyle. For the second question I have to say no and I am sorry, but the only males that are invited into our relationship are the Bulls that my Goddess chooses to sleep with or the girlfriends whom she wants to dominate me. But do not despair because there are other possibilities out there.
I met my Goddess after a long series of relationships each of which were not entirely unsatisfactory but in which I found myself pretending to be someone else. My past girlfriends all expected me to be a macho, testosterone filled male and failed to acknowledge that I wanted to be used and abused by them. I remember the first time I tried to suggest to an ex of mine that I wanted to cross dress and her reaction was to tell me that it was just a phase and that we would get over it together. There was no understanding there and no open-mindedness about trying to explore this desire of mine. For the remainder of that relationship I seriously thought there was something wrong with me because I was straight but desperately wanted to try dressing up in female clothing and have my girlfriend humiliate me. I later found out that many cross dressers are indeed straight. I can’t blame her for her lack of effort in trying to understand where I was coming from, it’s not her fault that she was not open to a world of kink, but it was my own fault for trying to make a relationship work even though it was forcing me to deny my true self.
I started to explore the internet and came upon a couple of sites describing the femdom lifestyle and the concept of female superiority. And from this research I learned that my desires are not that uncommon and that I was not a freak of some sort for wanting my girlfriends to sleep with other men while forcing me to watch. Eventually my internet escapades led me to Alt.com, where I found a whole community of people not just into female domination but into all sorts of different fetishes. It felt like I finally found a place where I could feel at home, surrounded by people who were going through or had gone through the same struggles as me. I got to chat with other loser males who told me about their real life relationships with their own goddesses and who also taught me that this was something I could find for myself in real life and that it was not a fantasy that had to be restricted to the internet. And that is indeed how I found my lovely, exquisite Goddess. Alt.com has an option where you can search for people in your city or neighborhood and I found out pretty quickly that there were a ton of people just like me in the same city as I live in. It was a big relief I think, to know that I was not alone and that I had just been unlucky in my past relationships. Using Alt.com to mind a potential new relationship meant that I already knew that my desires and fantasies were not going to destroy a relationship like they had in the past. It was such a great feeling to already have that out in the open right off the bat before even chatting with anyone.
So as you can all guess my Goddess and I first started talking on Alt.com and then we started video chatting and eventually decided to meet in real life. She only live about a 45 minute drive from where I was living. What can I say besides what you already know, meeting her is the best thing to have happened to me yet. I went from believing that I needed therapy because I would never be able to have a happy relationship to finding the woman of my dreams who not only participates in my fantasies but truly desires to live this way. So to those of you who have been asking me how to find a Goddess, I strongly suggest giving Alt.com a try. It costs barely anything and seriously you have nothing to lose!
