
Evil sadistic girlfriends. Ever had one? I did….my first one. She was truly evil and sadistic – and perhaps molded me into who I am and what I desire today. I wasn’t always a sissified eneuch of a boyfriend. My penis castrated (not literally) but hasn’t been used in so long, in might as well be. I think my first girlfriend planted the seed for what I would become now in my later 20′s.
It started off slow – she gave me my first blowjob. Because it was my first, I figured it was normal for it to hurt because of her teeth rubbing my cock. That was normal right? just enjoy it….just enjoy it – I told myself. I think she trained me slowly, without me even knowing until long after she dumped me for a bigger, stronger man.
She would love to lay down with me, and gently with her fingertips stroke my cock – we could do that for hours…we would watch movies, and she would just lightly draw circles on the bottom of the head of my penis. I payed no attention to the movies…I was in agony…for hours on end, she kept precum flowing out of me. Then she’d turn over and fall asleep. Sometimes she would wrap her legs around me, as you see in this picture – and she’d stroke me hard – making me cum…then – without any room to breath, she kept stroking…the sensitivity exploding in my loins, after having just cum. She’d say “c’mon c’mon real men have plenty of orgasms one after the other! don’t you want to be a real man?” – and she’d force three or four consecutive orgasms out of me. I’d be crying, I’d be exhausted – but I didn’t want to lose her.
The first time she slid a finger in my ass, I was shocked to say the least. She said “let’s just try it – this is what a girl has to take, so why shouldn’t you? It’ll feel good don’t worry!” – before I knew it, there were 2 fingers, then three…the tears were flowing, but my cock was still hard. When we started sleeping over at each others houses, I’d wake up sometimes in the middle of the night and my legs would be up, and she’d already have one of her dildos deep inside me, holding it as if it were her cock, and she was fucking me. If you think about it – my girlfriend anally raped me on a constant basis. But I loved it, and I loved her. It drove me wild, it kept me interested.
I caught her cheating on me…publicly even. Everyone knew. The first time – I saw her kissing another boy at school. When I confronted her about it – her hand immediately went to rest on my cock – over my pants. “Sweety you know your not such a good kisser, sometimes I just want a really nice kiss you know? It doesn’t mean I don’t love you…I love YOU!” she’d say to me. Oh ok…thats normal I guess right? Nothing wrong with that…why shouldn’t she have a nice kiss once in a while? She deserves it!
She was the school whore.
Everyone fucked my girlfriend, and everyone knew she was always cheating on me…but honestly…didn’t she deserve it? “Sweety you know I never even feel your cock when we have sex…don’t I deserve to have some fun too?” She’d say to me. I’d ask buddies, “hey have you seen my girl?” – and they’d respond “ya dude, I just payed her 5 bucks to blow me in the bathroom” – my heart sinking. So I’d ask “Hey, did it hurt at all?” – which resulted in a huge laugh…”hurt? why the fuck would it hurt dude?” … ya… she had trained me from the start. Sex and blowjobs, and anything sexual isn’t always supposed to hurt. It isn’t always supposed to end with me crying. I had always known that I think…but – she was my first girlfriend, and I was afraid of being alone I guess.
I had a lot of amazing experiences with her – she was really quite an amazing young girl.